Health & Wellness, Lifestyle

I Divorced Alcohol & Wine

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My favorite wine were Sauvignon Cabernet or Merlot and my favorite alcohol were Jameson Irish Whiskey with Ginger Ale.

I divorced alcohol and wine. We no longer have a relationship. Here I thought it would be difficult to do. I thought I was addicted to alcohol and if I listened to other people, I would have taken on their opinion or experience. I was out having a cigar last night and everybody in there had a fifth of my once favorite drink, Jameson Irish Whiskey. You would have thought it was a conspiracy against me or a test. I had no desire to drink, although my ego, was like, “gone and have a drink” and I kindly told my ego to kiss my ass, seriously as it was an internal conversation. I moved on and drank my chamomile and cinnamon tea. 

While sitting amongst all those who drank, all I could think about was when I went to sleep after a night of drinking wine or Irish Whiskey; my heart beat so fast and hard, I thought I was going to die. It was very scary, but even after experiencing that more than often on weekends, I continued to drink. I proceeded to destroy my body. My mindset shifted after my healing crisis and menopause.

If you are aware of the severe health crisis I experienced two years ago, you would have an idea of why I divorced alcohol and wine. In short, I suffered from symptoms such as hypothyroidism, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, alopecia, polyps, diverticulitis. Early stage heart disease and obesity and all from an overgrowth of candida yeast, sugar, processed foods, GMO’s and lack of exercise. After healing my body, I went right back to drinking wine and eventually the wine led to alcohol.  I was very disappointed with myself as I vowed to stay away from hard liquor as it is nothing but poison. That is not to say; wine is any better as too much wine would put me on my ass. 

On the weekends and sometimes during the week, I drank as I socialized and had cigars and I was so not happy with myself. I desired a sober body as I never asked for alcohol. It does not matter what I signed up for, but no one comes out of the wound asking to slowly kill themselves. I wanted freedom from all the bondage, indoctrination and unhealthy habits I was introduced to as a child. 

I talked to my husband and asked him to support me during the first 30 days and not drink when we were out. He agreed. My last drink was on Thanksgiving 2018, until, December 6th, when my sister-friend learned her daughter died. I had my tea, but of course my friend insisted on me having one sip with her to celebrate her daughter’s life. It felt like adult peer pressure (lol). That one drink led to two more drinks and when I went to sleep my heart pounded through my chest. I felt sad, guilty and disappointed all at the same time. But, that was a great lesson. What I learned was, one glass of wine leads to two glasses and eventually some alcohol even if it’s weeks down the roas. I am so not interested in that lifestyle anymore. 

So far, I have gone three weekends without one drink and that matters because I was a weekend drinker. I looked forward to having a cocktail and cigar on the weekend. I know you might say, the cigar is no better. Well, I chose the cigar, the alcohol, cigarettes, and marijuana was introduced to me as a child.

I look forward to this upcoming weekend as I maintain sobriety. It feels good to go out on the weekend and feel the same way or better as I did when I awake after laying down; no hangovers, no brain fog, and no feeling guilty for poisoning my body

I started regularly drinking when I was about 21years young as I partied every weekend. I won’t lie, I had some fantastic times. But, after 25 years or drinking, my body no longer tolerates any alcohol as it did before. What’s more, being in menopause is a crisis in itself for my body. I have what I call menopausal ass and thighs. After I released 46 pounds during my healing crisis, I wondered why the weight packed on so quickly, so I did more research on menopause and purchased an exercise program and meal plan from a doctor who focuses on women in menopause.  What I learned was astounding and guess what, the liquor did not help as it prevents the liver from burning fat like it would in its absence. Since I have stopped drinking, and using my, and eating program, I feel a difference in my overall being. Of course menopause can just go jump, but for the most part, the excess ass, thighs, and belly are releasing. 

Alcohol has been my way of life all my adult life. It was how I celebrated with friends, attended social gatherings; holidays, funerals, summertime in the Chi, dinner parties and any other gathering I attended; there was always alcohol. I became conditioned to living with alcohol and now I am conditioning myself to live without it. I won’t lie, I sure do miss Jameson, but today, I love my body and it deserves better. The anxiety was real as I imagined how difficult it would be to live without alcohol. My relationship with alcohol was a cool one, but overall, unhealthy as it does the body no good. 

Today, I release all those things that no longer serve me a purpose and especially those things I did not ask for. So long Jame, Caber and Merlot. It has been a great journey, but at 47 years young, I must live the next 47, not just living but living healthily. Until we meet again, I will have a cabinet full of herbal teas prepared to substitute for you. 

Well, this is my journey and it’s been a pleasure sharing with you. Thank you for reading. Please comment below and share with your drinking buddies. (-:

CoachKelley 
Holistic Healer
Healing Enthusiast
Professional Speaker
Life, Health & Wellness Coach
International, Award Winning Author

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Kelley Porter

A successful leader and expert on overcoming all forms of abuse, avoiding toxic relationships and the art of forgiveness, Kelley Porter is a Certified Life, Health and Wellness Coach, Award Winning Six-time Author, and Professional Speaker. As a speaker, Kelley’s transparent and authentic style of speaking will empower anyone to self-reflect, start the process of healing and correct thoughts and behaviors that may hinder them from living a healthy and non-toxic lifestyle. As a Coach, Kelley empowers you to reach emotional freedom, gain clarity and discover your infinite possibilities. She is well known for assisting in the removal of mental and emotional blocks that hinders people from reaching their fullest potential. Her areas of specialty are, but not limited to; abuse, healing, relationships, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors as she has written books on all topics. Kelley has over thirty years of direct experience with all forms of abuse, domestic violence relationships, creating purpose and power from painful experiences, and creating a positive mindset.